AngelicDecadence

It's been a while. This is a list of things that have happened over the past few years.



1. The one woman/person I ever truly loved, Kellie Halushka, died. She was struck by a motorcycle at a pedestrian crosswalk. So, I'll call it murder. I'm not sure if I mentioned that here before. I probably wouldn't have, seeing as I don't waste my time here as often as I used to. If I have mentioned it before, just pretend that I didn't. My world hasn't turned a single inch since. It moves on for everyone else, it seems. But they didn't love her as I did.

2. I have tried to be in relationships since. None of them have been as fulfilling as what Kells and I had.

3. One of those relationships was extremely toxic and controlling, with a man who tried to cut me off from my friends and family, and then ditched me high and dry when I got pregnant with his child. I miscarried at ten weeks. Neither of us have spoken to each other still. This is another of the worst pains I have ever felt. Not the relationship, no, but the miscarriage.

4. Two very dear friends of mine, Sammi and Krystal, died by overdose. They were both young mothers. Just last night I went on a 3am run to T-hill with a former coworker of mine, and I started crying because it reminded me of mine and Sammi's 3am rofo runs when she still lived.

5. In the face of my grief, more people have turned their backs on me and left me than those who have stayed. I'm not bothered by it. The trash can take itself out. If you're going to leave me when I need you most, then you were never really there at all, and that is more or less a gift. I can make room for new growth with you gone.

6. I have started writing poetry again. It is very personal so I won't share it here. I may, perhaps, share any art I can find that I may have made in my absence.

7. I'm only sticking with this stupid Komaeda face-sona because it's too much trouble to look for icons of somebody different.

8. I don't need nor want pity. I want to vent. That is it.

Oh, and I changed my tumblr username for the billionth time in my life. This is my new one.

That's really all. If you wish to talk to me, alrighty then. If you wish not, well I didn't ask.

Max is here! Be calm.

Just wanted to pop in and let everyone know that I'm alive!

Also, happy late Halloween.

I used to spend a lot of time on here, but I just can't be bothered these days... DA got pretty ridiculous.

I changed my tumblr URL. It's now borderlinewitchbaby! Most of my tumblr is me reblogging pretentious art/poetry stuff, and stuff about comics and music.

I'm mostly on tumblr and Facebook. You can ask me privately for my FB info if you're a friend of mine.

 

Haven't been on DA a while.

The heck is "Core" even?

Hello! It's been a while!

I've been going to therapy, and I was also in the hospital for a few weeks... Like, a few weeks ago. Stuff happened.

I moved to McSherrystown. It's a small boring town, I don't know anyone here. Yikes.

I'm mostly on tumblr, at: mistresstaxidermy.tumblr.com/
And I have a new aesthetic/BPD/whatever oriented blog: borderlinewitchbaby.tumblr.com…

I've been obsessed with phone games lately... Like... Puzzle and Dragon... And Pokemon Shuffle... And TsumTsum...

I haven't been around in QUITE a while! Well, I have reasons for that.

Coughs. Anyway. I have a new cellphone. The number has remained the same as it was, but my last phone is irreparably damaged so I couldn't get any contacts off of it. If you have my number and you text me telling me who you are, then I will add you to my contacts. Easy peasy!

Leeeet's see. I'm going to therapy again. I actually see a psychiatrist in the morning! That's a thing. I've been obsessed with Fire Emblem: Awakening, Steven Universe, and The X Files. I have a potglobe full of baby cacti which are my children and I am proud of them. My life is dull, I have no interesting updates.

Also, I now have an Instagram, weirdly enough. My sister has been teaching me how to use the app, because I am an old man who can't keep up with the newfangled technologies. The name is mistresstaxidermy, just like my tumblr URL.

That is all. Time that I go through about 11k neglected notifications. Farewell!